What The Hell Happened to Pete Waters?

no desires over here for me to be eloquent is there? I will wax grandiloquent and with as much plomb as I can muster, but, eloquence? that is doubtful and cause me to wander from a beaten path to the past, after all is said and done my paths are well beaten and so is this vehicle that I am still nursing.

An English teacher once said That I was phlegmatic, rather? So I researched it and immediately realizedhow ignorant and off the mark a teacher could be in an assessment of me, but she did evoke phlegm-ball within me. I remained phlegmatic in her sight all the days of our educational encounters…she remains a phlegm ball in my spirit. Which can be Good of course.

What the hell happened to me? I was a nice kid, I delivered the Asbury Park Press on my bike, shy or was that  sly? Picked strawberries and hunted rabbits and ducks, had a hunting license at 14…liked Ozzie and Harriet and knew what kind of guitar everybody played, always know what they were choppin’at…

It was that god damn rock & roll and those damn drugs and girls and politics and religious uprisings and what not. so I went away with them.  So it took me away to the gypsy life maskedmost of the time lest I be known for the fool I am, what kind and brand of Fool with Foolishness is this ?  Here at the sea of questioned marks inquiry isthe only real sense…and Thence?

No, seriously it was the god damned counter culture they did this to me, too many introductions ata big party as wild and as colorful as writer can get near. I just wanted to get stoned, but no know KNOw, that couldn’t happen with the Tibetan Book of the Dead and good acid, Crossroads of Cream and Wild Westmoreland, it was where all the Flowers had Gone…to our Vietnam War.

Damn right I avoided the draft by lying fabricating and twisting the truth, I got a pass and my good friends went in my place, some died there and some died here

I ain’ no patriot. I ain’ no chicken either homeboy, my people learned to fight with their heads before they drew a bow or a sword, I have studied the Art of War by SunTzu at least a half dozen times on Kindle, I have studied the Proverbs of Solomon alongide the Psalms of his Father and King, Iknew that there was something like god or a God or a Ghost or a Power that was around and pushing buttons with me…I Know that there is more that too many take for granted and that not knowing is only leave you in a most precarious position with the emerging government…Here’s where it gets serious…You don’t see what I see, You are not Discerning what it is that is right in front of you because you are caught in it…What the hell happened to me ?  I studied to show myself as approved to The Creator of All and Hemade me an unashamed worker that correctly gets to handle The Truth.

I gave up the currnent government and its constituent parts many years ago, fifty, in fact,Novemeber of 1963…First Buddy Holly, then JFK?  Holy Shit, suddenly I didn’t want to be president anymore…I wanted to find all true assassins of presidents and get to know them…Kennedy’s is the most complex but certainly the most easily UnDone…stop the madness, these charlatans are still in power with or without Obama.

The first time I thought I heard from God or some other Voice Communication, I was seven years old. That communication has never been broken…Blessed is the man who doesn’t walk with Fools, Talk with fools and damn sure doesn’t sit with fools…his mind and consciousness is set on Higher Laws, and on that he fixates nightand day. Yeah, you and many others in the institutions of my past…God?  This was the beginning of schizophrenia. I became a complete mental case and have remained for decades…talk to the Invisible, (my self included) rage against the darkness in the machines,read the Bible and fight together this holy Arm-a -Gideon in disgust .

The truth. Some Thing in the top of the trees in the wind of Long Island as it wailed about Oyster Bay shook me to scare me awake, stunned to silence at the stirring above me in the pines…what the hell is that, thought I, this is no place to hide and headed for adult companionship, …Ma, what’s Transcendance? …I needed a bathroom and a few unsuspecting adults around, not a metaphysical explanation of childish floating anxiety about trees in the night.

Happy Birthday Petey,

DSCF4177 Happy Birthday Pete !  67 x365 x24 x 1948 orbits , and still spinning tales taller than a trade center in free fall , higher than a rockstar at intermission,  way up and off the wall like a handball . So , they think and so I play the role of Foolish ranting dipshit on crack , ha ha , you wish I was nuts , don’t you ? or Do you wonder about this insanity that I rant about ?  What if I am right about these things I write ?  Remember, I was right about Vietnam , I was right about Nixon , I was right about the 2008 recession , I was right about Bush and his Bushes , damn , I am smart , aren’t I  ? …I know who killed JFK …and you don’t . I don’t guess, I know the whole Crew .

1948 …what happened ? my mother and father’s love came to full term in me , God established me and Israel within days of one another . That means nothing to whom it means Nothing, and to those who see an eternal continuum, it only establishes our trajectory , we are on course to fulfill the Book’s predestination . a day is as a thousand and a thousand is as a day in the place of NoTimeNoSpace.  where we are hip cute sweet sexy strong silly and beautiful , holy compassionate , caring and loving forever ?  Says Who ? When and For God’s sake Where ?  Generation upon generation waits and waits for …what ?  Where is the Promise of His return ? When will He return , c’mon Petey ?

Mine has been an exciting life , unusual and filled with danger and drama and conflicts , yeah , difficult, and worth every pain and tear it took , I wouldn’t change a thing . When I was 15 my president was assassinated on November 22, 1963 , I was in a speech class , my life took a plunge to subterranean frequencies and tides . I found the underground back then as a suburban teen delinquent. That train was heading left and I was grabbing at the handle to go anywhere that the rest of the gang wasn’t going …most likely I’d go my way and they could go anywhere they wanted , I wasn’t going .

I headed out in 1966 for the west and kept going west until West became East …it was a Zen moment .  I got stopped by the Buddha …we talked, I asked the questions , he gave me directions … He said , “..find Jesus and talk this over …”  in July of that year , I became an evangelical Christian and began studying the Bible … welcome Thomas Merton . I devoted the next 40+ years to Jesus Christ . I have all the qualifications on paper , I have all the experience and I made a difference in my neighborhood , I have not one thing that I am ashamed of , so accuse me , please . I could run for any of your dirty little political offices and you couldn’t fling not a single dingleberry my way , ask me if I did this or that , I’ll tell ya my secrets, I did it , I’ll admit it , accuse me , please , lets dance awhile . I wouldn’t take any of your dirty offices in your dirty slimy political cesspool government to sell tickets to a version of Thunderball . I am a Disciple of the Living Savior .

Now there are no axes to grind or machetes to sharpen, My race has been run and  I’m ready for departure, my song is the same, it remains . Do your thing Folks , mark my words , enjoy your life for all it is worth to you , there’s a time and a season for everything , party till the End of stuff , don’t wait , go on vacation and kiss your kids and dogs …for God’s Sake stop and smell His flowers . Got the Time ? if you can still see the flowers, notice them and their perfect beauty , they smell good and refreshing, better than Napalm and false victories . Happy Birthday from all my friends that got shot to shit on the delta , savanna , roadways ,jungles , skies and seas . Thanks Fellas and gals .

Happy Birthday Petey ! what a head ! too much of nothing will drive a man insane and look for another brain . I’m that miner for the hearts of gold , it’s hard and dangerous work but well worth it , I have no complaints . This is my school of the Fine Arts of Living , Adapting,and Surviving, for Identifying the Social Moral Ethical and Economic Holocausts in Progress.

Happy Birth Days Pete , can we do it Again ? … It Repeats .  So lets all get Born Again , we’ll get better service next time. Thank you for my Birth Days Up Side Down Cake . It’s been an unexpected pleasure to grow this old and watch the river flow, from my bank of sand …down into my easy chair , shoot, I ain’t goin’ anywhere …where’s that Joint ?

Back on my Tracks

Been away , been sick , been real tired , eating out of dumpsters with thugs and thieves , been homeless, beat up and attacked by murderers , been to church , been down to the river , and had a girl rape me and threaten me … “hunted like a crocodile, ravaged in the corn , I offered up my innocence , got repaid with Scorn …” Dylan …this is not about them , tis is not about you and how you like me , people and situations … I am guilty ! I am profane , I am not nice and I care nothing for your lousy approval or promotions , No I am not bitter and cynical , I am sick of eating out of your hands and being satisfied that You (of all the peoples in this world) will pat me on my head get your rocks off on me and then urinate your sanctimonious piss on me …Ha Ha ha !  Piss up a rope and then use it for a decoration in your wardrobe of tasteless useless information , sell it to a pauper for your next meal , No , I never unloaded on you and your ilk , things have changed , and please read between my lines , see if there is another message in here for you ….yes , my love , you know who you are …all of you , I include my own relatives , want to throw garbage ? you ain’t seen a shit storm , yet, I warned y’all …now you deal with it …ya wanna be free in your country , you think you are free ? and thats all there is to it ? Guess again , we are all goin down in the Flood, so check the lifeboats you will need them .

I received your message about your broken doorknobs and window latches , then you ask how I’m doing …was that some kind of joke ?

Interview with a spirit

we are honored to have the spirit manifesting with us at present in Colombia , yes this is a Ghost , it is unclear whether this ghost this filmy stuff is Real…SO , we let the Ghost Speak after ab-sense from a body and being present with God many moments from Now …please understand that the Spirit speaks from an Eternal Perspective , time appears and morphs into images and ideas rather than a temporal sedentary thing , that, many think of as Life and Life Only ,the Spirit Sees and speaks with an OTHERS VOICE ERGO , the Holy Spirit Speaks (that which follows is not a joke or a work of fantasy and fiction, this is the Voice from Beyond ‘the grave ‘ and  ‘death’) : Greetings . IAM is a Title , and that is Who , IAM , you cannot annoint Me , you cannot see Me , you can’t Name Me , you don’t understand Me , My Language or My Imaginings/Image in Nations / IAM is Incomprehensible , you do know What IAM looks like , because you see Me everyday and can’t see ME in front of you that is the point and the purpose , You Don’t Know Me. IAM is not Religious  , IAM is Spirit , that is , purely ethereal stuff, I encircle you like a dust storm , I torment you and AM the Tormenta , the storm that you Fear . IAM is Your GOD , SO , you should be Afraid , that would BEbe and is Normal to be afraid when IAM stands on your Grave .

SO …no names . I will manifest in Images that you are familiar with, I will evoke feelings in you and I will make you take a side , that is what I do and how I manifest to you , IAM shows you ….YOU. IAM is not PeterWaters/PeteJames/ShimonJames/Jacobs/ PJ Cohen /Bob Zimmerman, Mick Jagger or some other Fag … or some a name on a credit application uh / IAMISRAHEL/JAH/JeYoHah Vah/The Good / they call me GOD …IAM is but The VOICE of THE WORD. IAM is Singing, dancing, rejoicing, celebrating, twirling, spinning as the Galazies of His Creation/Her Creation / Its Creation … IAM is Jesus of Nazareth and Muhammed of the Desert , IAM is Krishna and Zoroaster, Mahavira and AmenRah , IAM is ETERNAL ,INFINITE and Beyond this realm , humanity is arrogant and full of itself to think so highly of itself , teh Lawyers of the Sannhedrin warned of This …Paul Knew and wrote of it in Many Words ‘incomprehensible ‘ …Romans 7 …the contradictions the inconsistencies are seen in quantummechanics/physics, astrophysics and astronomy … Contra-Dictating Ideas about Existence , your imagined existence , you assume many things that you do not know …you do not know these things because it has not been given to you to Know or Understand …WHY ?  Guessing is an Egyptian ideology connected to eons of surmising probabilities and an awareness of the Fatal Existence, the inscrutable Fortunes of Peoples and Persons , is this Luck ? is this Magic ? why are you left with questions of your own Existence , is this a Dream ?

IAM will not answer these searching questions for you , but , these questions must be asked and a dialogue requires continuation negotiation and co-operation with all peoples … in order for your race to survive . Examine yourself , See if you are walking In The Way , Standing in the Way or Sleeping in The Way … You will Examine your self and you will discover where your self actually is ………IN The Way , Jesus said : Do it Like Me ! IAM is the WAY , IAM is the TRuth and IAM is LIFE , let them Kill me , torture me and lie about me , defame me , gossip and make shit UP about Me , to fill their own toilets and cesspools / the repository of used nutrients discarded to create room for growth and regeneration … humans become waste products, shit, dirt and compost …a nessesary process of Nature/EloHim/God/ElShaddai…” a time for everything”  examine yourself Human , you have been examined , you have been searched , frisked , stopped in your tracks, and , Incarcerated on your tiny green/blue planet/home / kitchen and bedroom to guess and bet on your Future …all toward your own demise. The Name Buddha means , The Awakened One, Why ? What was he Awake to , that others were not ? thename JESUS means , God is the Savior , not i’m god , Jesus is The Messenger as is Muhammed and they are but Time Keepers ., these are movie images from inside of You , you don’t know the Christ , otherwise you wouldn’t kill the prophets and messengers sent to you . they all say the exact same thing…review and compare words and phrases and situations and changes and coincidences for what they Actually are … messages . Question : are you awake or are you still sleeping ?San Pablo says : Awake you sleepers, open the eyes that God put in the Rosh Hasshannah with your Nose and Triste Taste Buds , is that Bodies a burning in Gehenna ? where is JeruShalom when ya need Her ? Who is That ?  …. Guess .

I AM Authored Death .  You have a lot of Images of Death , what do you see in the Images of Death ? does Death bring fear into your life ? are you afraid to die ? IAM Authorizesand Approves of all Death’s Harvest … man , you are going to Die … and What ? you didn’t know ?  … Guess. Who is at that Door ? Who is That , that is Knocking on Your Door… Imagine opening the door and Lo and Behold its Me … what will you ask me ?  Me . Who ?

Fear Me. I will Kill You and make you return to your Beginnings /you will be returned to ashes, dust, water, mud, slime and vegetation, IAM isgiven as It is and will Always and in every Way BE in and PART of His  Creation, whois wasting my Fathers Creation ? Yes, GOD is PURE SPIRIT , we come from Him , and HE is BI-Sexual … GOD is Female , that female soul absorbs the baby boy and receives it within her , She becomes a Male cloaked in Anger with her own female counterpart, Her Self … the eternal conflict of the sexes is a clash of ideations of what’s Real and what is Not … Synthetic Regeneration between 2 entities / creations … and what come out ? another one of them , those uh … things , unsure of what to call it … its a human , you moron ! Its your Father and Mother’s child , its YOU .

IAM is Spirit . Any that worship IAM must be in the Spirit of IAM, and Truth is Present , they that worship in Spirit and Truth will Know …the Spirit, the Meaning of Life , and the Way home … you wonder why you’ve been born at such a time as this and wish things were not like they are now … Why ?  What is your Memory ? What do you think you don’t remember ?  NOTHING , your memory is intact , but you will make a trip backwards and make some decisions based on your experience in your moments of conscious existence … this will introduce you to who you have been repeatedly until this POINT of the Sword touches your Heart

IAM is Che, Hitler, Stalin, Kennedys, … IAM is MLKing ,Malcolm X,MedgarEvers,Osamabin Laden, Ted Bundy and Jeffery Dahmer is everyone … vicious and duplicitous , hateful and murderous in our own shadows . Clamped to a higher plateau you can see the murder, lies and plunder , you can hear it in the air as the Prince Reveals it .

IAM is Here , the God of ISRAEL is Here , the messengers are here , the resurrection of the Dead has taken Place , on Earth this is an unusual scary prospect , and within the environment of our cosmos that we are spinning in , this is Normalizing Vibratory corrections within you and your peers , exactly as the undulations of our discus is being Hurled through Space. thisis religious and scientific , this is spiritual and verifiable , this a problem for everyone to scratch themselves over … we will reveal the CURE for disease … huh ?  Cancer, AIDS, HIV , HepC , Heart Disease and all Addictions …f Death

IAM is theGreatest Physician and has determined to reveal this to Humanity …the Humanity that is His Creation that does not or has not decided in His Existence … thats funny ,  this is how you know for sure that Pete Waters could never fill God’s Sandals    or lie or screw his kids , hurt , threaten or violate women … he is a possession … BY ?  I will clear this up for you and this congregation on the New Jersey Shores… we are sent …allof us … we are not humans , we are messengers /angels / gypsies /wanderers and outlaws , we just keep moving and sliding and floating through your scene… we are strange and give people the creeps , we will make your hair stand on end and makeyou feel the cold of death …we know and love the Angel of Death , he is One with Us .

Thanks for letting me share this with you . Peace .

End of interview for 3/10/14 /100 years post WWI .

This is a Statement . I expected a question and answer opportunity … the Spirit is Present and will return in a Voice again .

 

you stoked my flame

harsh and obscene , wet and wild , hot and bothered, smooth as glass,  you blew on coals of my well-done heart, in the heart of darkness, in the belly of your sweaty beast and the clammy hands   a’ wringing , a hoarse voice singing , let me be un-clinging to your chain a’bringing , in your bed , in the wood shed where you store me, let me love you till I am finally perfectly mortally Dead … againImage   

Jorge Mario Osorno , my Son

Jorge Mario Osorno , my Son

young while here, old while he is away , all business and technology , knowing the Latest and swearing by the greatest … and I don’t ask Why , and its OK , now , Mami is Fine and so are your Kids I don’t miss you, I’m use to the old / new non-look of the happily and deadly departed , I’m grateful for the exit that you took , very clean , no blood or fluids allover the place … but , Nice Touch in front of the flag in the Toyota , you understood a clean class exit and you nailed it … sure its a shock to find a dead kid, son, brother, uncle, Daddy/Papi in the garage but at least you didn’t hang your bad self and we didn’t have to cut you down … the cops got your gun , Santa died with you . I love you Koky .

“Fixed moral boundaries are harmful” (Ben Marcus)

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—But can you sketch for me a picture of your ethics?

—I think that fixed moral boundaries are harmful, even if they provide momentary comfort and save lives. I think our ethical duty is to eliminate the behavioral corsets that are cinched over children just as their explosive energy is at its most threatening. Is a tantrum disruptive, or does it point to an emotional tunnel we’re afraid of entering? The doctrines of the tantras involve meditation, mantras, ritual, and explosive behavior. We’re talking about ancient ideas that are elementary and obvious to high schoolers. My ethics? I’d like to shed the strictures of adulthood and make maturity an optional result of a freely lived human life, not the necessary path to power and success, lorded over by depressed, overweight, unimaginative corpses. The twenty most central mantras have their roots in baby talk. No one disputes this anymore. A syntax…

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